一樣是從論壇上找來的翻譯文,因為超想看到結局就......拚原文。

http://archiveofourown.org/works/298627
以上原文
http://www.mtslash.com/viewthread.php?tid=49112&extra=page%3D2
以上翻譯地址

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關於背景作者沒有多做敘述與補充,也沒有大綱提示。開始時一切都還算輕鬆明快,被噩夢糾纏的Loki在不得已之下向Thor求助,倆人共枕而眠後漸漸地發現他們對彼此之間真正的感情。推測時間點是在電影之前吧?在許多同人文之中不斷提到的,Asgrad的金色往昔。
在我讀過大多數以Loki為主的雷神衍生創作裡,這篇文章由Thor的角度出發,很細緻的探討了他內心的變化周折。從單純的關懷弟弟到最後無法克制地去愛,卻又難以說服自己可以理直氣壯的這麼做,這樣在身為王儲的道德責任與感情衝動間糾結的細膩Thor對我來說真的是很難得的呈現。會讓我想起The Hope Only Of Empty Men (這也是一篇很棒的文章,但是太艱澀了我必須花時間理解重組才能閱讀......譯者最近又不更新Orz......)中鷹眼對Thor說的那一句話--"你知道,他都叫你蠢蛋,但你真不是。"
Loki仍然討喜。我必須說句可能有些自以為是的偏頗話。以同樣是寫手的角度來看,我認為像Loki這樣的角色其實遠比Thor好寫。你可以用各種優美的諱莫如深的劇情來鋪排他讓他引起讀者的共鳴,遠比寫Thor還好輕鬆,因為Loki比起Thor有更多的面相可以探討與發揮。所以對於這裡Loki我即使喜愛但......因為他就是我所熟悉會在各種文章裡出現的Loki,所以非常遺憾他不是讓我對文章印象深刻的那一位,儘管他仍舊迷人。 


結局停在讓人悵然的地方,很難歸類為HE或BE,是個充滿想像空間的開放式結局。硬要打比方的話,就像全面啟動那樣,你一開始放下心來,下一秒卻開始提心吊膽,然而故事已戛然而止。

節錄兩段,先譯文後原文。這次自己動手倒不是因為口味不慣,純粹是推廣用途&譯者還沒翻到而已,哈哈。

節錄 1 :

Thor親吻Loki的頸背,一遍又一遍的在腦海中重複那些他無法大聲說出口的話。
我愛你。我會為了你永遠在你身邊,永遠。這並非由於人任何人指使他不該說這些,而是它確實如此。他想到他們的父親與母親,想到三勇士以及Sif和整個Asgard──沉睡中而且完全不知道才發生了甚麼事,甚麼正在發生。所有的一切都已然改變卻無人能夠阻止它,即使是他們自己。

“你認為我們錯了嗎?”Thor問。他不知道自己為什麼問,但是他內心有些讓人不快的部分卻驅使他渴望聽見Loki的回答。

Loki的聲音,當他終於在黑暗中開口,聽上去相當混濁,彷彿他才無聲的哭泣過。

“是的。”

Thor把Loki環抱得更緊。摟著他的弟弟一整夜。

早晨時,Loki已經再一次離開。



原文:

Thor kisses the back of Loki's neck, saying over and over again in his head what he's afraid to say out loud. I love you. I'll be there for you. Always. And it's not what anyone meant for them, but that's just how it is. He thinks about their mother and father, about the Warriors Three and Sif and all of Asgard - asleep and completely unaware of what just happened, of what is happening. Everything is changing and no one can stop it. Not even them.

"Do you think there's something wrong with us?" Thor asks. He doesn't know why he asks, but some sick part of him wants to hear Loki's answer.

Loki's voice, when he finally speaks into the darkness, sounds thick, like he's been crying silently.

"Yes."

Thor holds him tighter. He holds him all night.

Loki is gone again in the morning.


上面的這一段正是文章的尾聲,看完以後我整個.......被擊敗Orz無言以對的痛。

節錄 2 :


“怎麼回事?”

Thor短暫的閃過一絲瘋狂的念頭想著他們就這麼逃跑,再隨便什麼其他的地方重新開始,但他又很快的甩開了它。

“我們是兄弟。”Thor說。

Loki垂下他的手。那是一個沉重的判決,且現在正介入於他們彼此之間,宣告著一切。而他們無法收回它。

“我知道,”Loki安靜地說,接著聲音更加微弱,”我不在乎。”

Thor試著想微笑,但那個笑容很慘,弧度破碎。“其他人永遠都不會了解。”他說。

Loki短促的笑了笑,Thor也是。因為他們自己也永遠都不會了解。而這樣的情況,既可笑又哀傷。

“我不在乎。”Loki將他的拇指劃上Thor的下唇。”我們是不同的,你和我。那些人永遠都不會了解。”

“但是如果他們知道──”

“我不在乎。”Loki回答,移開他的手指。”直到最後,只會剩下我們,對嗎?”

“是的。”Thor說。”是。”

“那麼抱我。”


以下原文 :

"What's wrong?"

Thor has this insane, fleeting idea to suggest they just run away, start over somewhere else but he shakes it away.

"We're brothers," Thor says.

Loki drops his hands. It was a loaded sentence, and now it's just sitting there between them, spoken. They can't take it back.

"I know," Loki says quietly, and then even quieter, "I don't care."

Thor tries to smile, but it's a sad one, broken at the edges.

"People will never understand," he says.

Loki laughs shortly, and Thor does too, because they're never going to understand it either. And something about that is as funny as it is sad.

"I don't care." Loki runs a thumb over Thor's lower lip. "We're different, you and I. They'd never understand."

"But if they knew-"

Loki pushes his thumb against Thor's lips to silence him.

"I don't care," Loki says. He pulls his thumb away. "It's only us in the end, right?"

"Yes," Thor says. "Yes."

"Then touch me."

大概就是從這段開始一路到結局,劇情就籠罩在一股山雨欲來的絕望裡。儘管中間上了頗為香豔的肉,說真的也很難撫平這一切沉鬱的痛。我喜歡這一段裡Loki如此鎮定,面對Thor的掙扎時,如此堅強。唉可見他多麼愛自己的哥哥.......Thor的猶豫沒有錯,他以自己的方式在愛Loki。我想這是他們彼此性格落差所造成的,Thor希望除了自己以外Loki獲得完整的幸福,即使那個幸福裡恐怕無法有他的一席之地;但對Loki而言,擁有Thor他的世界就已經完整,所以他才會說""It's only us in the end"。

....................................我突然非常沮喪,正經的說,這對真會有HE的一天嗎...........................

 


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